subconscious

i used to wonder why, when you were all that was on my mind, i didn't dream of you more. you never came into my dreams. not once. it was odd considering that every waking moment was taken up with you.

maybe because dreams are what is in your subconscious and you were very much in my conscious mind. all the time. so there was no need to dream of you.

now that we are over, and i do not think of you so often, you are all i dream about. every night you come to me and i am happy.

in waking i am only happy without you, in sleep i am only happy with you.

does my sleeping self know something that i have yet to realise?