forgetting

i say no to him. no. no. no. i push him away like i always do with everyone i care about. as he leaves i can feel a part of me going with him.

i lock the door in my heart that belongs to him. the glass starts to splinter and crack. shards break off and lie like tear drops on the ground.

i don't remember where i put the key. i don't remember why i wanted to be better, except for him. now he's gone.

that night i forget to eat again.