Saturday, February 18, 2012

a thousand miles

tonight mum and dad ask me what i want for my birthday. 22. "nothing," i say. nothing they can give me.

what i want is to be married in my little house, far away from here and the memories that keep taking me back to a time that i wish could be erased from my mind. and if not that, then i want to be back in the woods in washington, snug and warm with the snow falling outside and puppies to play with in front of the fire and popcorn popping on the stove. and you. mostly i want you.

but i can't have any of those things. not now. not yet.

i was so happy - am so happy, but i'm starting to wonder if there's such a thing as being too happy. eventually the things that made you like that become common.

at first it was enough just to have you, to know that you were there even if there were ocean separating us. it's not enough now. i need you physically, emotionally - in ways i can't describe. you'll be here in two weeks, but that's not enough.

i need you. forever.

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