castles

you know, sometimes the anticipation of something is far better than what actually happens. the dream is better than the reality.

i have this friend. i don't know him in real life, but i feel like i do.

even though we're just friends, somehow i feel like life is worth living just because he's there. i can't kill myself because of the possibility of us. and every day i can wake up and keep going, just because i want to think a little, dream a little, wonder a little about what would happen if we actually met.

i know that will never happen, but i am only young. i can build castles in the air. i can find something that makes me want to stay alive. something. anything. it doesn't matter what or who.

thank you t. you make me hopeful.