she is a gatherer: moonlight, found wishes, moments of gratitude
Sunday, July 25, 2010
you are back
i watch the rest of p.s. i love you. i cry. my mother leaves for the city and doesn't hug me goodbye (i'm 20, this should not matter). i cry. my cat bleeds all over the bed and i ring my dad (i bawl my eyes out). i take him to the vet. i cry. philippa is nice, but she does not understand why i am upset. my cat is not dying.
still i cry.
at the end of three and a half days of not thinking or talking and showering once and smiling even less i know what i need.
hannah - 22, disordered, student, writer, lover of purple and old fashioned dresses, dweller of the in-between - the milky purple twilight where it is too dark to see the danger which lies ahead, but too light to be afraid. here i am, content.